This whole week I'm been thinking about when Miranda was a newborn and how extremely exhausted I was but I still had to wake up and feed her and I had no choice in the matter. I remember being so exhausted I literally had a piercing pain in my back between my shoulder blades from nursing. I would wake up exhausted to nurse her in the middle of the night and many times I would fall asleep with her on my lap.
OK, it's not that bad but it kind of reminds me of the same feeling. The feeling that I have absolutely no choice in the matter. I have to be up and out of bed no later than 6:15 and Miranda has to be up by 6:30 so we can leave the house no later than 7:30. Next week move that up half an hour when Seth starts nursery school. I need to be out of the house no later than 7 in order to drop them both off.
Now I know what all you mothers are thinking. Stop playing your violins! I know many women do this every day and my hat goes off to all of them. I don't know how women do this day after day, year after year until their kids graduate. How exhausting!
So now I'm one of those women. Welcome me into your honored club!
Miranda loves school! She has done really good and has received a lot of WOW and Good Job stickers. On Tuesday though she did get time out for the first time for "accidentally" pulling a boy's hair. Of course I doubt it was really an accident. When she told me we were driving home and I couldn't help it that my heart felt like breaking when she said, "and I cried quietly in the time-out chair."
I imagined how she must have felt and what a humiliating experience that must have been. But she learned what was the consequence of acting up. Unfortunately, as my sister says, "Kindergarten is the boot camp of life." This is where she will learn all the rules of life. I hope she learns them well and I will be there to help her along the way.
My tia went through the exact same thing this past Monday! She enrolled her my cousin in pre-K and called the house crying the first morning of school. She seemed more worried about the first day of school than my cousin, who happens to love school!
Yes, welcome to our honored club! The question is not how women do this day after day, year after year until graduation but rather, how is this done while keeping our sanity in tact! I've been doing this for at least 13 years and still have at least 6 more to go. When I ask myself "How?", the answer is "I don't know, I just did" and so will you. Enjoy it because believe it or not, these are the "easiest" years.
Wow.. I think of all that lieas ahead of me, when AJ starts school some day. Like Strega Nona said, you will just get through it and do it, because let's face it, us working mothers have no other choice. I"m sure in time the morning routine will get easier, but then as the kids get older then come all the after school activities and then you not only have the morning routine to worry about, but also the soccer mom afternoon routine. Ay ay ay!
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